Long Time

WOW!!! It's been a long time since I wrote my thoughts down here. Lots has happened & lots has changed.
I have changed jobs a few times, had a baby, moved, started making jewelry, had another baby, lost a baby, started selling jewelry & most of all grown in so many ways spiritually.
It just amazes me time & time again how God will bring me to a point of feeling like things couldn't get any better & then letting me fall flat on my face to where I feel like things couldn't possibly get worse, then reminding me that HE is in control & not me both thru the good & bad.
I really wish I were a faster learner because those harder times seem to last a lot longer then the easier times. =)
In 5 days my oldest child will turn 10! Man, that just isn't right! She has grown into a beautiful young lady & I am so proud of her. I love getting to just be with her & enjoying her personality. I continue to pray for her & her growth in Christ & that her heart & mind will continue to be protected from the "bad" of the world she lives in. She has so much to learn about, the people she trusts, the things she thinks, the things she believes, ect. I just pray that God leads her in the path that will bring her peace.
Josie was born at 23 weeks & in 9 days I would have been 40 weeks. This week has been really hard. I continue to think how I would NEVER take her from the perfection she is in now but I still want to be holding her in my arms right now. She was so beautiful & so complete & so helpless. The Lord has provided comfort & a sense of peace thru this trying time & I am thankful for that. I try to not question the reason things happened like they did or what I should have done different but it's hard. It's a constant fight to not think I could have kept it from happening the way it did. Once again, GOD is in control, NOT me. His plan is perfect & all things work together for good.
In 19 days my baby boy will be 4! That's just NOT right! They grow up too fast! He is so excited about his birthday. Ever since Jaiden's birthday in February he has been asking when his birthday is. We are getting there & I'm not ready! He is so wonderful & smart. He seems to know so much more than I would ever imagine him to know & he doesn't slow down much. His pink & chocolate keeps him going all thru the day. =)
My baby girl as turn 1 year old, started walking & started getting a temper in the past month. Man, she is wonderful. She makes me so happy & it just feels so good when she puts her arms around me & pats my back. She is so lovey & I need that most all the time. I don't know what I would do without her. She's a perfect fit for our family.
My big little man is 7 going on 27. He is crazy! Crazy about girls, sports, girls...=) He makes me laugh so much. He is so good with his little sister & can make her laugh just by being himself. He is getting so big & keeps asking when he can get married. I just want him to get thru the 1st grade & he's worried about when he can get married. I continue to pray for his personal relationship with Christ. He has the potential of being the next Billy Graham if he will just disreguard all the wrong he's been taught in the past 7 years. I pray for protection on his mind & heart & just pray that the Lord will reveal the truth to him soon so he will not be mislead any longer & can grow to his full potential spiritually.
In 2 1/2 months I will have been married to the best man in the world for 5 years. I really believe that God made him & thought of me the entire time. He grabbed all the parts that I missed & put them in him. I couldn't make it a day without knowing that he is going to be right there. He has a heart of gold & lives to serve God & be the leader of our home in a godly way. He prays for & with our kids on a daily basis & that is priceless. He loves them without condition & would love for them to ALL have his last name. I pray for him to have the strength to deal with me on a regular basis. I am a handfull & I don't know how he does it & loves it. I think he's just crazy but I'm glad he is!
God has provided for every NEED that has come my way, maybe not the way I would have liked or expected but He faithful all the time.